Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts

Sunday, May 30, 2021

Thank you, Asia "Wishlist" (1 more day until seeing Adam)

"Wishlist"
 

10:05 PM in Hong Kong

Airport Terminal 1. Gate 26.

2 hours until the plane takes off.

We are waiting now.  These are the final moments of being a Hong Konger.  

Yesterday was full of goodbyes and emptying an apartment and getting to a hotel.  


It was an emotional roller coaster.  

Today was calm.  

Time for a Messenger chat with Adam. 

Time for a nice breakfast.  

Time for tea.  

Time for a perfect message at Luxe in Wan Chai.  

Time for Starbucks and cream puffs.  

Time for floating in the pool at the appointed slot.  

Time for room service with the family.  

Time for a tiny nap before leaving Ocean Park Marriott at 8:30 pm. 


The city lights were clear and beautiful as we passed by for our final time as residents.

I wish I could have seen Siem Riep in Cambodia.  

I wish I could have gotten to Taipei, Taiwan and Jeju, Korea and Tokyo, Japan.

I wish I could have visited Seoul and Boracay one more time.

I wish I would have seen Victoria Harbor from Ozone (on the 101st floor?) one more time

And walked through the Old Walled City park.  

I wish I could have given our helper a goodbye hug, but our paths didn't cross in person yesterday to do that.

I wish I could have eaten with my HKIS cohort (7 years!) at a local spot once more.

I wish I could have gathered the Super Moms together once more.

I imagine I shall think of many more things I would have liked to do or do again, 

but that is the nature of endings - 

there will always be some things left unfinished.


Therefore, let me instead now blow my wishlist to the wind and let it go.  

As Brent so eloquently reminded us all at Baccalaureate, "It is well. It is well with my soul."


Wednesday, May 26, 2021

Thank you, Asia "Count Down" (5 days until seeing Adam)


Count Down

7 years has passed 

6 pm deadlines for grades to be submitted: MET!

5 more days in Hong Kong

4 more nights of sleeping in a bed before boarding a plane

3 more days before turning in my computer and HKIS ID

2 pets re-homed and settled

1 super blood moon signalling the change

0 regrets


May 26 photo at the conclusion of the lunar eclipse of the super moon.


All photos by © Brenda Brayko.  All rights reserved. 



Tuesday, May 25, 2021

Thank you, Asia "First Lines" (6 days until seeing Adam)

Between 2010 and 2021 while living in Korea and Hong Kong, I have continued to write.

I have written 239 posts on this blog "Oh, The Places You'll Go", millions of emails - pretty sure - and at least 70 poems.

Here are the FIRST LINES of my poems in no particular order.  Well, actually that's not true.  The order in which they appear is the order in which they occur in my Google Drive.  That is, my poems are ordered by when they were last modified so these lines are ordered thus.  It is more or less a chronological ordering; I think you will recognize that. Enjoy.  

(Remember, this is a poem made of poems!)

First Lines


Here at KIS

Have arrived in Korea.  We are very tired.

First and foremost, I'm looking forward to hugs with family and friends and lots of

There's something about Burger King 

I'm a psychopath.

Since your inception 2 years ago you've had 5,265 visits

Just get something on the page.

Who am I?

When I was six my family lived in the country

When I beheld its yellow eye my heart

The summer I was 15 my whole life was lifted

Surely the current is strong, the water is freezing

haphazard

Today begins the march toward Calvary

A one-inch puffball becomes a mouse

Hidden in the early morning darkness

I used to dream bigger

The change is nearly imperceptible

It goes something like this,

Your Siren song cannot lure me

Twenty-five years together

They look out over the seascape from shore

Rock.

As the heart ever beats

When we left Green Bay we had no idea

A silhouetted shape of His suffering rises starkly

Distant skyscrapers line and stack like legos

A sensitive boy of almost 9

The air is heavy like a wool jacket

The students were carefully prepped

I got plump you got grey

So here we are in this life

The charming girl with the big smile and the non-stop chatter

You're growing me up

I am from the Driftless area of bluffs and streams, fossils and crystals

The day is sunny and hot in the Philippines

I've been wearing 50 for a week now

No one ever told me that learning was the Answer to the question of Life.

Who are you, Kolkata?

The tide is low at Tai Tam Bay

In life your spirit was big and strong and vibrant

You are newly born on the other side of the veil

You breathe in and out.

Your arrival took us by surprise.

An unfoldment of a dance whose only purpose is to dance

I see butterflies every day.

Birds of early morning call urgently across the jungle below.

May you know who you are.

Fight by staying put.

"The sky is falling. The sky is falling."

Rigby and I stand on the 115 year old stone footbridge at Tai Tam

From up here

Fresh, crisp air of a blue sky of lazy, white adrift

Uncertainty

Get up at your leisure.

You cried for nature and the outdoors.

It sucks.

It's lonely in here

Oh, Covid-19 you sneaky shit with an invisibility cloak

You are stepping out there beyond my purview.

Slow down.

Come in!

Dear

God

54 is realizing how old my parents are - I mean, I am now the age they were. . .

As I contemplate Sharon Olds' "Ode to the Tampon"

When I walk through the woods, feel the wonder of it, notice the bees and smell the flowers

You took away my peeps again.

On this day

Find a home for Rigby


Thank you, Asia, for providing the time and inspiration for so much poetry. 





Friday, April 30, 2021

Thank you, Asia "Different Worlds" (poem) (31 days until Wisconsin)

 In 2010 we took our first trip to the Philippines to Boracay Island.  This is the poem I wrote to capture the place and the people and the experience of snorkelling. 


Different Worlds

The day is sunny and hot in the Philippines

Not as oppressive as a sauna

but more so than an apartment with no air conditioning.

We twelve wade out to the catamaran 50 meters from shore

holding high our towels and knapsacks as azure blue laps at our knees.

The rickety stepladder sways to the rhythm of the water,

So we carefully mount, flanked by Filipinos extended hands.


"It's hot,"  I say.  "Almost unbearably so."

Four men with dark skin and hair and friendly smiles

take their positions having done this a thousand times.

But this is our first so we chatter "This is so cool!" and

"I'm so glad we waited for good weather."

The sound of the engine suddenly drowns our musings,

As it backs out of the shallow water of Boracay.  

The sails flick into the wind;

Securing our bright orange well-worn life preservers,

Someone asks my oldest, "Isn't this fun?"  

She interrupts her singing long enough to smile and nod her flopping braids.


The wind is intense on the Sibuyan Sea.  

I hold my hat with one hand and the boat with the other.

Our group laughs at the sea spray soaking us.

My youngest holds tight to the boat, his blue eyes squinting.

Arriving at an uninhabited island, we  wade in.

The sand underfoot is brown and rough.

The palm trees and beach welcome us. 

In the quiet, only a few straw huts sit about empty.

At a lookout, high waves are crashing on the windward side of the island.

I breathe in the deep blue of the water and the foamy white of the caps and spray.

The breeze threatens to snatch my sarong and hand it to the ocean as a gift.

I clutch it tighter.


Off again to snorkel the coral reef.  My first time. 

The kids are brave and excited to snorkel for real;

My husband wonders aloud what we'll see "down there"

Leaps in and begins drifting away, discovering the sea’s treasure.

I carefully secure my mask and breathing tube then jump feet first.

The rich sapphire water embraces me, warm and refreshing.

My lips wrap the breathing tube tightly.  

I attune only to respiration - In. . . out. . . 

all sounds of the world above are blocked.

I blink.


I've entered another world.

We are visitors - or invaders, in the case of our anchor wedged in the coral below.

It is simply our privilege to view life teeming beneath our floating human vessels.

Brown, green, blue coral, black spikey sea urchins, Nemos and Dories,

Near the bottom, a school of fish swim upright like floating seaweed.

Someone spots a blue starfish and we fin over to admire it.

No need to swim here, the current takes us from one coral to another.

Fish with neon colors swim alone while others swim as a school.

We had no idea this world was under our very noses.


I muse about the existence of these widely diverse worlds

and their thin dividing membrane.

Lift my head to a world of sails and ships and coke bottles marking waterways,

A world of  poverty, 16 hour days, threats of war.

Lower my head - Triton's world of coral, fish, seaweed, starfish, and urchins.

Head up - creatures breathe air for oxygen.

Head down - creatures breathe water.

Head up - airplanes, boat engines, men mumbling at a distance.

Head down - water, only muffled water.


I wonder if this is what it is like to enter the world of souls.

Head down - earth, land, sea, and sky.

Head up - 

Who knows?




Saturday, April 24, 2021

Thank you, Asia "Notes to Self" (a poem) (37 days until Wisconsin)

Here is a poem I wrote in February.  I hope it provides insight into a life in transition as well as a life in general, and what the speaker values.  Thank you, Asia, for providing the time and space for poetry.

Notes to Self 


re-grade the late assignments

email vendors about Interim

plan the next units for JENG and APL

reschedule the cancelled meeting


eat at work instead of at home sometimes

check on your parents Sunday morning

play Yahtzee with Alec more often

buy stickies to put appreciation notes on his door


call Adam to see if he is okay

check the Wisconsin Covid news and numbers

see how Paul is doing after his surgery

plan a staycation with Brent


clean out at least one drawer every week

don't obsess about the lives disrupted by Covid

shelter your morning meditation time no matter what

start practicing qigong again more regularly


practice your new gong for 30 minutes per day

notice the clear blue skies and the low pollution

watch the News only one time per day

send that donation to Future Hope


give away what you don't wear or use anymore

send your daily gratitude list to Lars

swim for 30 minutes on Tuesdays at 5

buy a new high quality microphone


finish the book club book before Thursday

invite friends out for dinner Saturday night

figure out your clothing style for gonging

notice the kindness of others; do kind acts


find a student to help create a business card and logo

find a new employer for Mhel

find a home for Rigby

get Jigs up-to-date on his rabies vaccination


find the best price for one-way tickets


Poetry by © Brenda Brayko. All rights reserved.


Friday, April 23, 2021

Thank you, Asia "New" (a poem) (38 days until Wisconsin)

 New


When we left Green Bay we had no idea

Those fourteen flowered and worn suitcases

Could passport the four of us to another life.

Via Incheon the West had become the East 

And all shone new.

The many-laned highway was flanked by grand mountains

Urban and natural landscapes already intertwined.

All I know is that I knew nothing -

Not customs, not language, not landscapes, 

Not weather nor wildlife.


Now home is West and East

Wisconsin and Korea and Hong Kong,

Somehow I had found my true Self in the scatterings.

“Every ending is a new beginning.”


Now I shine new.


Nov. 7, 2018

A product of Poet Luka Lesson's writer’s workshop at HKIS


From The Peak we can see the urban intertwine with nature in Hong Kong.


Sunday, September 23, 2012

When I am six and fifty. . . (a poem)


When I am six and fifty. . . 

1972
When I was six my family lived in the country 
near our church and a graveyard.  
Down the hill was a dairy farm -
cows and chickens and friends my age.  
Days were spent with my older sister, 
mostly swinging or riding my bike 
on the gravel driveway.  
I wrote my first poem then - “Piggy Piggy”

1982
When I was six and ten we lived in small-town Iowa: 
Population 1600.  
I was anxiously awaiting getting my driver’s license, 
hated my wait and worried about friends.
Still, Iloved acting in the plays and musicals, 
and wrote poetry about nature and love and boys.  

1992
When I was six and twenty, I lived in a Swiss-town in Wisconsin.  
Population 10,000.
I loved the thrill of teaching en francais and en englais. 
Best of all, I was deeply in love with the substitute teacher.  
I believed he was “the one” - 
and he was!

2002
When I was six and thirty, I lived in the Promised Land (according to our pastor).  
Population 100,000.
My life had been consumed with love and teaching and church and dogs 
until it became consumed with trying to “have a family.”  
Life was full and empty at the same time.

2012
Now I am six and forty and living near Seoul, Korea.  
Population 10 million plus.
My husband is graying, 
my daughter’s feet are nearly as big as mine.  
My son needs a haircut 
and they both dream of having a cat.  
I swim and bike and do yoga and zumba.
I teach English and learn Korean
and try to make a difference in the lives of N. Korean Refugees.   
I write poetry and teach it and wonder what life will be

When I am six and fifty.


September 23, 2012

Monday, April 5, 2010

I came to you on a whim and divine providence

I came to you on a whim and divine providence.

Maz had said, I think Notre Dame is hiring. Why not see?
Forty-eight hours later I smiled nervously as "TBA" at new teacher in-service.
In an innocent instant one life had passed and another began.

Seventeen years later I marvel at how time flies.
The familiar rhythms of a school
Familiar faces in colleagues and students
Familiar lessons all make it seem easy now.
Can it be I began with only two sentences to guide my lessons?
Can it be I've seen a dozen administrators come and go
And likely 5 times that of colleagues?
Can it be I've taught and been taught by 2000 adolescents?
Phase I and II of renovation, new tennis courts, teachers' parkinglot, new football field all mark physical changes in the grounds,
Though the institution remains unchanged.
How could I have known a simple job inquiry would turn vocation,
sustaining me for so long?
How could I have known a simple job inquiry would see me through
two adoptions and the death of my father-in-law?
How could I have forseen the support of fellow POETS
And the coming and going of so many dear friends?

We live in the moment - like infants who
think you only exist when you are present;
We are most present to the time and place of Now.
So while the places we've been go on without us, we often don't think of them.
Sure, every now and then we dream of that perfect beach
we reclined upon once long ago
or that friend we haven't seen in years, but
Mostly we live each day as it comes.
Life demands it be so-
And that is how it should be.

I came to you on a whim and divine providence.
I leave the same way-
Off to some new adventure
The next leg of my life's journey.
I'll continue to BE and you shall, too.
We shall exist simultaneously but separately.
Every now and then we shall dream of one another and check
FACEBOOK for a message or a word,
for some way to keep connected while worlds apart.
No doubt your prayers for me and my memories of you
shall keep me anchored through the awkward
Beginnings in my new land.
No doubt I will tell them-

I came to you on a whim and divine providence.